Need inspiration feel total self loathing over sugar addiction

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Just ate a tub of ice-cream and feel horrendous. Im not particularly overweight (though i am not at the healthiest weight).

I cant even admit to my husband how much sugar i crave and eat. It just has total control over me even when i hate how it makes mr feel.

I somrtimes fall asleep the sugar crash is so bad which is just awful.

Its linked to feeling shit about my life and stressed but even though i know this i dont know how to stop.....

Anyone gone cold turkey from similar place ?

I moved from processed sugar (e.g. chocolate) to natural sugar (dates, grapes) and then less sugary fruit. Try to eat sugary stuff with protein, like flavoured greek yogurt, or nuts. Generally up your daily protein too, it helps.

Do you think it's absolutely the sugar or might there also be a reason you're looking to food for some kind of comfort/reward/punishment cycle? Often the root cause is something else relating to how we feel about ourselves and looking for ways to mitigate that or even punish ourselves for it. Binge eating in particular is somewhere to put all of that stress or upset and it's very easy to get stuck in a cycle once you start.

Talk to your partner OP, nobody decent would judge this and would offer support.

I second the advice to make small changes, cold turkey rarely works. Switching to something sweet like greek yogurt with fruit (and a teaspoon of compote to start with, say) and using ways to limit portions if the self control isn't quite there yet - don;t eat ice cream out the tub for example, portion it off into a small bowl. If you're someone who likes biscuits with a tea put 3 on a plate and enjoy them rather than sit with the packet.

Try to find other ways to distract that aren't indulging in food as a reward. It's easier said than done obviously and presumably you aren't looking to lose weight if you are at a healthy weight but if it is impacting your mood then it's wise to take steps.