Anyone struggle to feel happy or excited when they achieve something?

[DailyDairy]

Recently I found out that something I've been working towards for years is finally happening (think promotion at work, milestone achievement type thing). Instead of being happy and grateful, since I found out I've been consumed with anxiety and self-doubt, thinking things like, what will everyone think? Can I really deliver on this? Is this really what I want?

This has been a pattern for me for years, that every time I get something I've been wanting or working towards, that I totally miss the moment to be celebrating because I'm so busy predicting disaster and worrying about things going wrong, and questioning why I've even been striving for the thing in the first place.

Does anyone else have this tendency?

Anyone?

Me! I feel happy for a day or so, then the anxiety kicks in, and self doubt overwhelms me.

Even things such as passing professional qualifications - I should be happy but then I worry people will think I'm better than I actually am and I'm going to disappoint everyone's expectations.

I don't have a solution, but wanted you to know you're not alone

Oh yes - and I also have a husband who is the same so lethal combination. We climbed Mount Kilimanjaro -everyone else high fiving , me and husband what is all the fuss about, we are both able bodied people we should be able to do this. Similar or promotions - I should be good at my job !

My default setting is that people celebrate stuff which they should just be getting on with, same as when people ask me what I feel proud about - nothing. I feel proud of my child as she is fabulous but that's nowt to do with me it's not my credit to take.

I do realise I have huge issues!