My brain is just telling me no no no. It's just too much of a change for me to handle. I can't bring myself to read the news. I'm sure lots of people are feeling like this but just wanted to let it out here since I haven't managed to speak about it to anyone in real life...I just don't want to. It feels awful. I'm not even sure how it's even possible for me to feel this way since I've never met her...