Fat and feel low so today I'm doing something about it!

[NoMoreChubRub]

Got on scales and crept up to 12st.11!
When i met dh i was around 10st.3, after losing 3st, but unfortunately this wasnt done properly and was basically an eating disorder linked to how i felt. However meeting my now dh changed my life and i started looking after myself better.
So i have to be careful not to get obessessive

But now years on, 2 dcs later. Ive gained so much, probably various factors.
Youngest doesn't sleep well so tiredness means i crave a quick sugar fix constantly.
Im less active in the respect of work as i was then a sahm now wfh. My last job was 8 hr shifts in hospitality so calorie burning.
I love food but go for the wrong foods.

The dcs are starting school and ill have more time to walk etc even if to the shops etc.

I need to do this. Just a stone to start with.
Reality hit when i realised i put myself last as i hate how i feel. Not the normal mums putting dcs 1st but ott. Like not even buying new underwear until mines threadbare. Wearing the same 5 tops as i don't feel im good enough to wear nice stuff. Me and dh butt heads about this as he hates the fact i wont buy myself stuff. He's always says he loves me for me notmy size i could be 8st or 18st and he doesn't care
Something clicked yesterday and i did buy some clothes which when i put on looker lovely but didn't feel it because i felt chubby.

So today im going to start cutting back the crap.
Each day the dcs at school im going to make a point to walk somewhere ( i love walking if a purpose) so if it means making a point to walk 1.5 miles to asda for a loaf of bread then the next day 1 mile to bm for toothpaste i will.

Ive noticed my mood is crap because i hate how i feel and because its the sugar crashes.

So goal 1st before Halloween! Which in reality is easy

Nutracheck app installed and signed up

Just did 1.5 mile walk its not much but better than taking car

I started a couple of weeks ago. In an ideal world, I would be 8.5 stone. In the real world, 9st. 9st4lbs is top - after that, I feel fat. Scales packed up ... all inclusive holiday ... new scales, 10st.

Lost about 4lb first week and 2lbs last week. This week, nothing. Hanging in there - no longer hungry all the time, but I am craving a piece of cake or a decent sandwich.

It's a start and you have got to start somewhere! You have achieved 1.5 miles, you got out there and did it. I am approx same weight, signed up to a gym last Monday and feel better already. Taking it very slowly. Good luck!!!

I've felt like you OP and you can't achieve the change you want from a place of hating yourself. Buy yourself some nice stuff that fits you as you are now.

Be kind to yourself and stop bearing yourself up. Eat a proper amount of calories and not 1200. Do some exercise for your physical and mental health. Expect it to take time.

I could have written this too OP, and identical weights!
My dh is the same, tells me he loves me for me but I feel awful in all my clothes, I have a party in 2 weeks and can't find anything i don't hate myself in.
I went to the gym on Thursday night for the first time in years and felt much better, I hope I can keep it up!

I hope you do well - I have woken up this morning feeling the same. I lost 2 stone in first lockdown by 3 lockdown put it all back on and more. I just need some oomph. My kids are grown up and I live by myself so I should have more control to get started but I just eat a cake and think tomorrow.
your husband sounds like my late husband - lovely xxxx

Thank you. Yes taking it 1 day at a time.
Its the junk food. I wont think nothing of eating 3 do nuts for breakfast. Then 2 snickers and cake for lunch. A dinner then a fee cakes again. No exaggeration. Id snack too!

Im determined to do it.

If you like sweet foods then I would go for the 'Skinny bars' - they are very sweet and low calorie, just right for the sweet fix. Have a good day - I hope you have time to get out for another wander x

Every little helps. A 1.5 mile walk will have burned off around 150 cals.

My PT says abs are made in the kitchen, not the gym.

What are you doing about food?

I'm in a similar situation. Need to lose a stone to get to my happy weight.

It's maybe not for everyone but I've been reading up on the damaging health effects of being overweight / obese. It does help stop the snack cravings in the evening!

So today im going to start cutting back the crap

ypi ate already off to a good start OP. The amount of times I see posters saying “I will start on Monday” “from next week, I will be making changes”

and I always think - why not…now!

Thank you. I've been pretty good to be honest.
I had a pudding yesterday as df did dinner. But that's it.
Normally in 2 days id probably have eaten over 5000 calories in junk. Because i literally graze on chocolate and cakes etc all day.

Didnt get chance to walk today as have been yoyo ing between pre school and school visits, barbers for ds. Gp for dd. Dance for dd and grocery shopping but the bit of time I've been at home I've made sure i keep moving hoover etc.

Tonight whilst dh and eldest have leftover cheesecake i have natural yoghurt and fruit.

Im not saying ill 100%be strict as due to previous ED i dont want to get obsessed but its a step in the right direction

You will nail this op

the number of times I see posters saying they will start next week, and the diets they propose are laughably unrealistic.

You are doing this so sensibly. Keep at it