I am so stupid

[Loser]

I need to get this off my chest as I can't tell anyone irl. This is not a begging thread, before anyone says...

I've had small issue with gambling, always spending a little more than I can afford, but I couldn't quite bring my self to completely self exclude as it was a little pick me up when I was feeling down. Just £50 here and there.
Yesterday I had an awful day, and thought I'd just spend £20, might get lucky. I don't know what came over me and I've lost almost £1500. I'm so disappointed with my self. I left a bad relationship with lots of debt which I had slowly been clearing, only the day before I was feeling so good that (although still using credit cards) I wasn't literally living payday to payday anymore. Now I'm going to struggle to pay rent and I'm going to have to scrimp to get buy for a while till I dig my self out. Again, not a begging thread, it's my own stupid fault.. I just needed to tell someone what I've done.

Gamblers anonymous - hope you find the help you need there. Get rid of all betting accounts. I'm sorry you have put yourself in this situation but I really hope this is the wake up call you needed. For the love of God don't for a minute think you can gamble your way out if this as it will make it a million times worse. I hope a reformed gambler will be in on a minute with advice.

It takes a lot to face the fact you have a problem and ask for help, so well done ♥️ count this as your rock bottom after getting close to being sorted, this is it now the only way is up.

While you have that sick feeling of regret get self excluding, go on your banking app and use their blocking feature too.

This could be the start of your recovery