So a bit of an odd question. But some background first.
I have not always been prone to anxiety, but over the last few years it's been ramping up. Causes are a layering of marriage problems, bereavement, Covid, peri-menopause.
I have never been a very confident swimmer, but enjoyed it as an exercise. I do breast stroke, don't put my head under water, slowish but steady. I was doing it regularly and even did a 100 length sponsored swim. But then I lost my confidence, as the level of water in local pool went very low, and I kept touching the bottom. It totally knocked my confidence and I struggled to continue. That was several years ago.
This week I am on holiday with my 12 year old daughter at a holiday park with an on site pool, and we have been swimming every day. On the first day, Saturday, I really tried, and managed to get going again, and have been improving every day. I have been so pleased with myself!
But yesterday when we went to the pool after a long day out, I just couldn't do it, and I am back to square one! I seem to have lost the ability to float or coordinate my limbs! And trying makes me more anxious about it. This morning I am feeling generally anxious about the state of my marriage and the rising cost of energy.
I appreciate that this is long and a complex situation. But I feel just so disappointed with myself for not being able to do it.
So is it possible that my anxiety has caused the swimming issues, and what should I do?