I feel physically sick and completely drained.
Big milestone event in next few weeks (being deliberately vague due to daily fail Happy to elaborate in msg)
Its made me realise how deeply, deeply I'm unhappy in life. I am blessed with my children.
In every other aspect I am drowning totally and utterly overwhelming unhappy not that it's acknowledged more put up with until I stop crying and pull my self together.
I want to fall asleep and never wake up.