Convinced something awful is going to happen as I’m so awful

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and trust me I am awful. I intend to do right but I fail often.

I have spiralled into anxiety. My ex won’t speak about house sale so I am trapped until I get a lawyer. A close friend is v temperamental with me and when I asked for her share of a deposit towards a booking she’s now not speaking because I haven’t been understanding about her circumstances. I feel like I’m on the cusp of losing my job as frankly I’ve been shit at it recently and was told I may have to have formal steps taken to rectify things. Which I assume is a disciplinary. I feel low all the time. I’m worried I will be reported for something, don’t know what but just feel terrible about myself. Supposed to be moving house soon and worried the house will collapse on me and dc. I just am not coping at all. I wish I was dead. I don’t know what to do.

Sorry you’re feeling so awful. Have you spoken to your Gp?

@MaggieDragon yes they do nothing. I don’t mean to sound unkind but they have put me on a list for mental health that I will hear back from in 6 months.

You really need something to alleviate your anxiety and shift that permanent feeling of dread. Ask your gp about medication. Beta blockers are my friend, as are my antidepressants. I can live normally with these.

Ask your manager to refer you to occupational health, and try and be open about anxiety. People usually want to help.