I keep going over and over whether I’m feeling bad enough to warrant going to my GP. I can still get up for work but other days do nothing. I don’t want to go places, I don’t want to see anybody. I had to go visit family recently and I was dreading the entire weekend. I dream about living somewhere so remote I never have to speak to anyone. It’s like I can sit and talk to people but say as soon as I’m on my own going to the loo for example all the negative thoughts are back. I know really I’m isolated and need to mix with people but I can’t motivate myself to. But then I think well I’m not suicidal not really, I’m more just existing and maybe that’s ok. Has anyone been like this where you’re not sure what to do? I know I want to change things but I can’t and will medication really change anything?