I had to have a blood test yesterday. I haven't had one for a long time but wasn't worried about it as I've never been scared or anxious about them before.
I was shown to the cubicle and a pleasant seeming man said hello and started the process. He struggled to find veins in first arm so went to the other. When he found one in the other he went to get the stuff he needed from the table. Then he shouted at me No! Don't move your arm for goodness sake, I didn't even realise I had to be honest. I was so taken aback at his tone i just didn't say anything. So he started the blood test and got the blood he needed. Then he started to remove the band thing from my arm so my arm moved a bit and he shouted at me again No! No! Don't move your arm for gods sake. Again I didn't even think I had and if it did move it was him taking the band off my arm. I felt a bit shocked and to my horror I started getting tears in my eyes. I thought i would be able to disguise it and just get out of there but then he started saying 'are you okay'? I said yes but he wouldn't stop asking me.This is where it went weird, it was like I almost just shut down. I felt so angry but I couldn't even look at him. I just said could you please hurry so I can leave. And he wouldn't stop asking was I okay in a sickly sweet tone now. But if I had tried to say anything about the way he spoke to me I would have cried more and I didn't want to do that so I just said please could you finish so I can leave?
I'm high tailed it out of there when he was done. I felt so shocked and embarrassed at my reaction to him raising his voice. In the past I would have given back as good as i got but I just felt so vulnerable or something yesterday I don't know. Thing is this seems to be happening more and more, me having such emotional reactions to things.
I'm not sure what I want from this thread, maybe just needed to get it off my chest.