Mental health crisis with baby, will I face losing my job?

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during pregnancy I was off work for 3 months in one go. Partner had left, I wasn’t coping, it was horrendous. Work were nice and I went onto long term leave so got paid still. Had maternity and will be going back in October. My work was slipping before I went off sick though as I tried to hide it for a few weeks before I had a horrible breakdown.

I am so so worried they will now be on a mission to force me out. Ex has played no part in DC’s life and despite earning huge amounts I have to fight for maintenance. I really need the job to help juggle it all.

I’m so scared of going back I am having nightmares. I feel I’ve forgotten a lot of stuff too, I get paid 75k so it’s not a job I want to lose and I need to be on my game. Im not at all. Can they get rid of me strategically?

Also having not been in work for so long I feel I’ve forgotten so much. Its not that sort of job you can go in and just get through the day. I’m honesty worried they will try and test me and my mind will go blank as I’ve not done it for so long

Bloody hell, you've been through the mill. Can you request returning to work gradually, speak to your Dr

It must be overwhelming
The first week is the hardest and now your ex is out of the frame things will hopefully be less stressed once you get into your stride
I wish you and your little family the best of luck

How about asking to arrange some kIT days before you go back to help reintegrate yourself?

So you need to think about what support you'll need going back - gradual return, KIT days to catch up on what's been going on in your absence, any training you can go on to brush up on your skills? If you're still having mental health problems can you speak to HR about any adjustments that might help?

I’m just worried if I say anything it will give them more chance to force me out. I am ok just worried about what they are going to do. I wouldn’t manage financially without it, ex doesn’t give a shit at all about maintenance and it’s very hit and miss. He should be paying me 950 a month but I can’t rely on it. If I could I would be calmer, a bit.