Self loathing

[goingpearshaped]

We are about to go on holiday for the first time in years (abroad) and I am so ashamed at how much weight I have put on. It is getting me down and I just can't seem to switch into doing something about it. I have lost weight before (admittedly easier then as younger, more time and less medical related reasons) but I know I could do it if I bloody tried properly. I just can't seem to see that I am worth the effort in trying (keep thinking about Noom but it seems like so much money and I should spend it on something more sensible etc). Feeling really cross and angry at myself.

I hear you OP. I put on a couple of stone in lockdown and I'm tiny so it really shows. I know what to do, like you I've lost weight before. I just can't seem to get my head in gear and stick to anything for over a week.

I've had a shit lonely day and all I can think about is getting wine despite me having quite a lot this week. It's one of the main downfalls to my diet.

No helpful advice just solidarity.

Really sorry to hear that you have had acrappy day @Supersee , feeling lonely is just grim. I hope tomorrow is better.

Thank you for the solidarity, I literally fel ashamed of myself and worse because I know this is my doing. Was overweight before lockdown a bit but like you , have put on a couple of stone. I have to do better post holiday!

Good luck to you, perhaps we will both get to the point of making the change.