Mum burnout

[Lcw29]

I'm so exhausted. I feel like I can't get through one week on my own with my boys. They are 4 and 2. I feel I'm constantly snapping and akways angry. The TV is on because I just want them to leave me alone. I'm irritable and feel guilty all the time. I feel lonely and I'm fed up of doing kid stuff.

Yesterday my 4 year old really pushed my buttons and I could have screamed. Nothing was making him behave. I nearly lost it. I found myself sitting on the stairs on the verge of tears.

I don't know what to do. I have ME so my energy is limited as it is. They wake up early so I'm basically doing 13 hr days. My patience is thin. How do I not lose it? I just want to disappear. I want a break from being a mum.

I love them don't get me wrong but I feel broken

@Raigo thank you do much! That has been hugely helpful. My oldest has now started school which has been nice to have one on one with my youngest.
I'm definitely going to do a list of what to do on a bad day. Great idea 💡

Also my hubby doesn't put his career first. He mainly works from home now . Its also hard on him as I can't physically work in a paid job so he shoulders alot just in a different way. He also tells me to go to bed early and will sorts the boys out for me. We're trying to communicate our needs better but no ones perfect.