For childcare reasons the grandparents are looking after our 3 year old for a few nights while we work in the week (they live around 2-3 hrs away). Usual nursery is term time only, and partner didn’t want to arrange other childcare- just family and annual leave from us 😮💨. We only have one child, if that’s relevant. I’ve had a lot of stress at work lately and it seemed like a good option while I sort everything out. The first night is tonight and I’m struggling already, although I was fine with him staying away for a night close by when he was a baby. I don’t know why I suddenly feel like this even though I trust the grandparents 100% (they’re great people, still young, very attentive and share my values as a parent).
I realise I’m very lucky to have this option. I struggle a lot with my child’s behaviour and I’m always very stressed, so this should be a good time to ‘recuperate’, but I feel guilty and miss them already. I have really bad anxiety at the moment related to a health condition and it’s made me feel a lot less resilient. I feel a lot more stressed by sort of sending him away. I feel a bit lost with the house so quiet, even though this is what I’ve been craving.