No-one to listen

[ItisallPooh]

I have no-one who wants to listen to me in real life. My husband keeps telling me I'm a negative person with a negative outlook so I now don't try and have any little moans to him.
His mum makes out that any issue I have is of my own making and therefore I should fix it. Literally anything including getting long covid or when I got a sepsis and ended up critically ill.
My sister is my only other family and she is very busy with her own things. She doesn't want to hear any problems I have. She changes the subject back to her all the time
Everyone is always happy to dump their problems on me but if I have an issue, I'm expected to get on with it, be strong, find a solution by myself.
I've always been the fixer. The one to come up with solutions. It is like they freak out if I need help.
It isn't even that I have major or terrible problems. I would just like an ear of someone close to me. I am made to feel like I am a burden though.
I asked to speak to my husband one evening. He huffed, paused the tv and looked at my. Clearly watching the darts was way more important.

Have you told what you feel to your sister or your husband? Ask them to spend time with you?
If you ask them while they are otherwise occupied(like while watching darts, etc), then it may be understandable they are half hearted.
Maybe next time, ask him that you want a talk, after he finished watching darts, etc?

I have tried to say/ask if we can chat. I get the impression that I am
Just bothering them by saying anything at all.

Forget about the impression, just make it happen? If you don't talk, nothing will change.
Ask your dh that you want to talk, so if he can make time. Tell him in the morning, that you need to talk tonight after work, etc. And make sure that happens. I'm not talking about the things that are bothering you at the time, but the fact that you feel like you are not listened to, emotionally neglected etc., the root cause of your unhappiness.

Talk on here OP. It seems to be today’s world- no moaning, happy and positive all the time, game face on. But we will listen 💐. Sepsis sounds terrible! You must have been pretty scared.

Yes, it isn't even major things. It is just like I can't make conversation let alone speak about big stuff.
Most people say I'm a very positive person. The one that says different is my dh.

And Sepsis was scary. We all have different kinds of trauma about it. My sister took the route of pretending nothing was wrong at all. Even when they got a call to say I might not make it.
DH says it was the worst time of his life and never wants to talk about it again.
I'm still recovering and was out of it for so long. I'm working through the trauma and it is going to take me a while. Although I am well on the road to recovery now.

I am glad you are feeling better. It sounds like everyone was terrified to be honest. You could try gently mentioning the subject without a heavy chat “sometimes it’s really important to get it out”