Driving...lost confidence since having baby

[Tinfoilmushroom]

I wrote out a long post and it got lost so before I give up here goes

Started lessons 7 months pregnant (waiting lists due to covid) and unfortunately my c section was booked the day of my test so had to stop lessons. I was so confident and loved driving.

Since giving birth (6 month ago) I've had about 5 lessons. Test is 10th August. My instructor said today that I've taken a nose dive since giving birth. He said I stared off amazingly but since giving birth its basically gone to pot. I've spent today in tears. 41 years of age and I can't fucking drive. I feel such a fucking failure

Of course I'm tired, even though dh takes dc the night before any lesson so I have proper sleep. But my concentration is zero and I am so unconfident now.

I am hating myself, and after 3 years of therapy to stop this way of thinking...here I am again

How do I stop this thought process, where I think I can't do it. I was so confident before, and now I feel a shell of a woman. I'm going to fail my fucking test. I want to scream.

Anyone about?

And breathe… you can do this, but maybe 10th August is a little too soon if you’re feeling unconfident. Can you move the test?

Is your driving instructor usually so negative? For me, lessons were all about the quality of the instructor. Once I found a decent one, I really improved and my confidence soared. I was 40 when I passed 😊 your instructor needs to cut you some slack, you’ve just had a baby AND major surgery. And you need to give yourself a
break, too

Thank you for replying. If I cancel this test I won't get another one until next year and I desperately just want to get it done. But maybe its just not practical though. I wish I could get my confidence back. Can I even change the instructor? I find him hard to understand sometimes.