Not sure if I’m happy

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Me and DP have a 7mo

We’ve argued on and off and had good times but after a bad week I feel drained

part of me wonders am I happy? I don’t feel
like he’s the same man anymore or that he even loves me. He says he does but he’s so distant

i don’t have anyone. I only have parents siblings. No friends. If anything happened to us me and my baby would have to move back in with parents and I’m not an amazing earner so I’d take so long to save and move out with my baby (my name isn’t on the house mortgage)

then when I think like that I feel so guilty for my beautiful son how could I ever do that to him

i dont know if I’m just a bit tired and overthinking but I just feel we’re on off arguing. He has clear anger problems he won’t sort because he says I’m just as bad (I literally don’t have any anger problems) so I don’t know

When you say he has anger problems OP, what do you mean by that?

Sorry you're having a hard time

You need to get some advice and sort your finances out. Why are you not on the mortgage?

He’s never hit or raise his hand to me I’d just like to clarify this!

he shouts and swears and littlest things make him angry it’s not right I’ve told him off I don’t want our son hearing him swear or even his road rage which is another level to normal
road rage

when he got the house I was temporarily out of a job so our mortgage advisor claimed it may delay getting the house and we wanted to move out asap (we were with parents) and now it’d cost a few grand to add me on which I don’t have