Been on MN a while now but never posted anything. I'm reaching out to anyone because I honestly feel so alone. I'm a SAHP, husband works a away a fair bit. I have a 3 yr old DS (who is non-verbal autistic) and an 16 month old DD. A couple of months ago I had major abdominal wall repair surgery, which means I'm struggling to lift the kids while I recover. It's a long story, but I have no family at all to help me. My MIL helps sometimes but she lives 2.5 hours away and she's getting on a bit. I have no friends at all. None. I've honestly not made one mum friend since I've had kids. I'm an outgoing person with lots of interests but I've really struggled with isolation since I had kids. I've also moved a couple of times too. I literally have nobody to text (other than hubby or MIL/SIL), nobody to go out on a girls night out with or to talk to. I feel so alone all the time. My kids are also so badly behaved. They don't eat anything I cook, my son spits because he can't communicate properly (he's receiving speech therapy) and they just whine at me, throw tantrums, kick, scream, you name it. I feel like I didn't sign up for this. I wanted to have a family I could share experiences with and to teach my kids life skills and have fun, but instead I just feel completely taken for granted. I really hate my life currently and just want someone to talk to. I want a social life outside of this house.