Made a total drunken twat of myself

[GoodHearted]

On Saturday night with friends. Had FAR too much wine and ended up bursting into tears at the end of the night (in front of 2 of them, thankfully everyone else had gone home) for reasons that are unknown to me. I was just so drunk. I have self esteem and loneliness issues but I'd never want anyone to know. I have no idea what I've come out with, I have quite a few secrets and I'm terrified I've overshared. Nothing sinister just very, very private stuff. I apologised to my friend yesterday and she said I had nothing to be sorry for and I'd not done anything wrong. I asked her what I'd said but she said she didn't really know and it was all a bit hazy to her too. The Fear is real. What a dramatic, drunken, needy mess.

I. Am. Mortified.

I fell down the patio steps and it was caught on the Ring camera after a 'couple' of wines. Shit happens, move on.

Don't worry too much...everyone else probably has a hazy idea of what happened and is just worrying about what they said/did.
You'll feel better tomorrow!
I don't drink any more but when I did I went through phases of crying when I was drunk. I think if you're keeping a few things bottled up your body will use the opportunity to release all the stress in the form of crying.

Don't overthink it, we've all been there and it really doesn't sound like you did anything that bad. I've done far far worse while drunk, often around work colleagues.

The alcohol is is probably still in your system and making you anxious but honestly, it will seem a far bigger deal to you than anyone else. Chill.

Everyone does this at least once in their lives OP. The trick is to laugh it off the next day.

Hey there we’ve all done it! Sounds like you were with good friends who hardly remember it anyway, so I wouldn’t worry about it. There’s a physiological reason for your ‘hang-xiety’ although I can’t remember exactly how it works!
Give yourself a break. Doesn’t sound as if there was any harm done. Sometimes it’s even good to let people see your more vulnerable side! I’ve done that and felt closer to people afterwards, and to people who have revealed that side of themselves to me.
Big hugs xx

It won't be anywhere near as bad as you think, believe me. And maybe opening up a little will mean that you get a bit more support from your friends.

I absolutely hate attention and I never cry in front of people. I'm just so embarrassed. I'd literally pay to delete the whole night 😫

I didn't drink gin for years after crying one evening.

For years I missed out on lovely gin as I thought it made me cry. That was the worst bit!