Recently found out how my partner has been cheating on me over the years. Details are too much, disgusting, gory, really horrible and I am not planning to go into that.
I feel so much pain I can’t function, it has been a few weeks but it is not getting better and I feel that every day I’m sinking further into the abyss.
The pain is about losing a life we’ve built over decades and the future we’ve planned together for our children. The kids who are still very young losing their chances to a happy home, our futures in tatters. And the lies, the betrayal. It hurts so much.
I need to pick myself up and be here for the children. Currently I don’t sleep, don’t eat and spend most of my time ruminating. I can’t focus on work and I feel beat/ruined. I know the grieving is a process that takes time but I’m sinking further and further and I am seriously depressed.
I have been in touch with the gp, quite supportive, had an assessment for talking therapy and the waiting list is 3-5 months. I need help now.
Please can you advise on any podcasts, books, meditation anything really to help me cling onto life and rise above the heartbreak?
How am I meant to cope with this? I don’t know where to turn for help.
Please no ltb, check yourself for std etc. This is not what this post is about.
If you have any kind words for a stranger who’s on her knees and needs help I will appreciate it.