I'm 30 and feeling very off kilter.
I remember being 24 and thinking 'I have loads of my 20s left' then suddenly it was over! I spent most of that decade living in 2 European countries. Even lived next door to a world celeb at one point. Had loads of fun stories to take back home.
I moved back to the city I'm from in the UK shortly before the pandemic. The company I worked at had folded and I felt I needed some respite but stayed. I even bought my own place thinking it would provide some stability. It has...
But lately I find myself terrified of making the wrong decisions and that I'm in the wrong place. I frequently visit the city I used to live in & my employer has indicated they are happy for me to work from there occasionally.
In my current city in UK I don't love the city but it has its good points. I have a good job and am on the road to promotion. I have great friends but no partner - my serious ex cheated on me. I have dated others since but no one serious. I have lots of great friends here but again I can't base life on friendships.
I just keep thinking 'am I in the right place? What if this is wrong and I need to go back where I was before?'. I worry about finding some guy, settling down and hating being here. I feel paralysed, like I can't decide what is right. Any advice?