I’ve been at home full time caring for mum for about six months, previously cared for her on and off since age six or so (I’m now 31) . Nobody knows for certain what’s wrong if it’s early onset dementia or very severe mental health stuff .
She was admitted to hospital a month ago as she was becoming impossible to safely care for at home, and drs/social/family told me she’s going into a care home, it’s no longer my decision seemingly, which makes sense and family have found a lovely care home that takes all ages .
I’m leaving her house tomorrow, leaving the last few bits for family to do, and travelling back to uni to try and complete degree I started five years ago … I’ve only got one year left .
I’m going spare tonight . I’ve packed as best I can, I’ve tried to pack most of the house other than the garden (which needs a skip run) and shed and back hallway . I’ve tried to do everything else . I’m panicking I’ve forgotten something though. Pacing the house almost .
I’m leaving at 10.30 so think If I get up for 5, that gives me time enough to hoover through the house and do one final sweep before I go .
I’m so worried, I feel weird leaving mum in other people’s care and going all the way back to uni (150 miles) .
I had to say goodbye to mum’s GP yesterday too as she won’t be keeping on as mum’s doctor once she’s in a care home, so likely won’t ever see her again which has left me tearful too - she’s been a huge huge help .
What can I do to settle tonight? I’ve checked just about everything in the house, cleaned everything I can …