I need help to figure how to get a proper job, I feel like such a failure..I feel so stuck and trapped. My employment situation is completely consuming me and I feel so down. I have this heavy feeling of dread in my stomach which I can't shift.
I'm going to include everything I think could be relevant so apologies if this is long or i waffle on.
I'm mid 30’s, young kids (nursery& reception), DH works FT but nature of this job means his hours/shifts/days change constantly so ultimately can't be relied on for childcare although when he is home he's brilliant and gets stuck in with kids and home. He could be out from 6am or not home til 11.30pm any day of the week. He earns well but cost of living means it's no longer enough. If he changed job his wage cut would cripple us as he is highly experienced in his field. If he's out early he is usually home around 4ish or if he's out til late doesn't go in til lunch time.
Here is where I am stuck, I'm desperate to properly return to work, mostly for my sake as well as the extra money. I have no career or qualifications I worked in office based customer service until I had my eldest. Where we live there isn't much job opportunities (mostly retail/hospitality etc) typically you'd travel to the nearest city. I'd prefer to be office based.
As I don't drive that's a commute of at least 1.5hrs (allowing for walk to/from train stations & Train timetable based on typical start/finish times) if I worked 9-5 I'd need to drop off 7.30am or collect 6.30pm but breakfast and after school clubs only run 8-6. I'm learning to drive but there is only one road in and out of the town so with traffic still looking at 40/50 mins. I'd need to book before breakfast and after school clubs even though I wouldn't need both on same day I just don't know far enough in advance.
I feel my best option is to work from home. Since covid there seems to be this impression of there is tons of remote jobs going but really there isnt. Least not for someone without a field.
I'd need day shift so I could use the school clubs without adding 3hrs to my day on commute.
I don't know what to look for. My old job was shift work, which fell out with childcare.
I'm happy to start on entry level and work my way up but can't figure out where to start.
I'd love go to college etc but again I have same commute/timing issue, there no college/uni in my town.
Lastly moving house isn't an option.
Is there any hope for me, can anyone suggest any job title I can look into that I can do from based from home, on day shift only without a qualification or experience. I've spent hours on job sites and feel I don't get anywhere.
I did try care work. worked as bank to work it around DH but I barely got work the shifts are 7/8-7/8 or 7/8 to 2ish and 2ish - 7/8 so I could only really work when my DH is on a day off which lessen the chance of getting shifts on short notice. I started off booking childcare but then didn't get the shift so was losing money. So it wasn't working and I didn't love it either so left.
Any suggestions?