Sorry for the length of this but I really want to get the word out there.
I'm now 61 and I'm seeing a noticeable difference between those of my friends who've been on HRT and me, who came through the menopause relatively easily to start with only now to hit a wall. I don't have any chronic health issues: I'm not on any other medication. I'm not diabetic. I've been pretty lucky with my health.
On a purely superficial level, none of my friends on HRT have suffered things like hair loss, a massive increase in facial hair and so on. I've never had to think twice about my hair before, but it is now baby-fine, lifeless and my parting is growing gradually wider. It's demoralising, as is the beard I now have to pluck every day. I try to remind myself these things are only superficial and it shouldn't matter, but it does.My skin, which was always good and which I never had any problems with, is now dry and extremely sensitive. I've had to start using Avastin, a topical hormone cream, to deal with vaginal dryness: the skin's become quite fragile. I've also for the first time in my life had UTIs, because the dryness affects the uretha too, which can become irritated.
Unseen, but increasingly debilitating, is the stiffness and aching. Everything from my fingers and wrists and shoulders (both shoulders have frozen since menopause and it lasts about 18 months before wearing off) to my ankles aches. There's a tendency to arthritis in my family and the menopause seems to have really brought it on. I try not to 'oof' when I get up from a low chair and I work really hard at trying to disguise the discomfort but I'm constantly reminded of how my body has changed. I've never had back pain in the past and I've also been quite straight-backed, but now I'm aware of that curvature of the spine and shoulders that one sees in older people developing.
I don't notice my peers on HRT having to hide their aches and pains. I've tried talking about it and they have their mobility issues, but they seem to revolve around hip and knee pain, the result of wear and tear, and not whole-body changes.
Back in my 50s I'd planned this period of my life to be full of activity. I'd heard that once women were through the menopause they got a great surge of energy back. It hasn't happened to me. I'd planned to be travelling and going on treks around the Grand Canyon and Yosemite and walking mountain trails in the Alps and at the moment that just seems like a crazy dream. I'm seeing a physio, I'm trying out anti-inflammatory diets. I don't know how much of this is hormone-related, but I do think it's a massive part of it.
I have an appointment with a private clinic to discuss whether it's too late to start taking some form of HRT. I'm not expecting miracles but if it can help with half my symptoms it'll be fantastic.
I'm really not interested in hearing from men, who don't go through this, that we need to be careful about over-medicalising the menopause.