I grew up with an abusive father. He was an alcoholic and a cheat. My parents had traditional roles. He refused to let my mother work but he also withheld the wage he earned for his family.
I was 12 years old getting a summer jobs and I kept that for years on a part time basis working in the evenings to help my mother.
So I was never academic in school. This was due to my part time job. I struggled in school. I finished school 21 years ago and to be honest all I ever did was drift.
I went into hospitality for a few years but I left that. I hated it. Some customers never had any respect. The same as some managers. I went to work in a factory. That was OK. I like that but I was lost. I was always good with babies and children and I went into childcare and I liked that but eventually I moved into home care. I fell into the home care position.
I am struggling so much lately. I hate my job due to being bullied. If it was up to my boss I would be working 60 hour weeks with little breaks. I never once got an over time payment or time off in lieu. Its just brutal. All of this was hammered home to me yesterday when I started my day at 7am and I wasn't allowed to finish until 10pm at night. I was waiting for an individual to come in and relieve me but that didn't happen.
I don't have the stamina to work like this any more. To work so hard with very little respect towards employment laws as if they are loose advice and little respect for me as a person.
I am allowed a lunch break now, thank goodness but the morning I had was brutal. I was expected to work in the kitchen while also at the same time assisting disabled people with bathing. I'm expected to be a super person.
I'm so sick of my life and the working path that I am on right now. Work with varying levels of intensity for very little pay. I want to leave the caring positions and caring professions ASAP and never go back.
I'm drawn to factory work as a stop off gap. Clock in, work on a line, have a lunch and clock out and go home. They wouldn't be any nonsense of working me into the ground.
But what then? What can I do then? I will need work that will treat me properly. Does any work exist like that where bosses are not cunts?