Is this all in my head?

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Every time before a event or trip away,weekend away,night out I can't sleep.
I think about it a few days before and I know it's going to happen and it does.
I get that awful nervous feeling a few days before.
Not because I'm nervous about going ..because I'm nervous I won't sleep and feel awful.
Wednesday night (before going away) I was still awake at 3am then kept waking every half hour.
Thursday night (hotel night ) I was knackered but still couldn't sleep (I kept telling myself Tommorow would be ruined as I would be exhausted)
Friday was a write off ,I was exhausted yet last night in hotel kept waking up every hour.
Got home Saturday night and slept like a baby (10 hours ,didn't even wake up )
Last night slept normal again
What the hell is the matter with me?
I've tried hot bath before events to relax ,distraction ,hypnotherapy
Nothing works
Same routine
Few days before il start worrying about not sleeping then I won't sleep and my worry comes true ..
How do I get out of this stupid thing?

Is it because you're out of your usual bedtime routine? I try and follow my usual routine when we're away even if its a very late night. A bit of time preparing is better than not getting a decent sleep. So I shower, fave body lotions and potions, hot drink, lights off, read kindle. That coupled with taking my own pillow, or if that's not possible at least my own pillow case, really helps. Dh thinks I'm nuts - he drops off to sleep anytime, anywhere - but I need the comfort of routine to relax and drop off.

If it's not that, have you have a bad experience that makes you connect hotels with stress?

I don't think so no
As it's before anything planned the next day.
So I could be meeting a friend for food on the next night and I would worry I won't sleep ...then I don't.
I know it sounds a bit crazy

Could it be perimenopause? I have no idea really but a friend of mine had uncharacteristic anxiety and sleep problems during this time.

Sounds incredibly frustrating. Hope it improves soon, must drive you mad 😩.

Sounds like you're anxious about ruining your day and then the anxiety stops you sleeping.

I'm only 26 so I hope not
I have previously had bad anxiety but i thought I was passed it ...can't shake this off tho