I feel like I can’t handle it anymore. I do suffer from anxiety, but I’ve noticed that in the 5 days preceding my period, I’m in a complete nervous breakdown. I’m not even saying it in cutesy way the society usually talks about PMS as a woman becoming “grumpy” etc etc
Its absolute hell. My period is due today and:
- I didn’t sleep for the last 2 nights due to severe anxiety. First night about my DD7 underperforming at school, with my brain catastrophising until I’m all shaking, short of breath, pulse of 120, nausea and vomiting. Last night because of my potential career change/application to the uni, all the risks and uncertainty coming with it etc etc etc.
I never asked for help due to disbelief that the NHS have resources for me and because of the stigma. I know I’m unreasonable, so please don’t flame me, But I’m working on myself, keeping a journal where I do CBT-type exercises etc. It’s the PMS period that’s killing me. It’s coming from inside. I’m sure that a couple of days later I will think “what on earth was wrong with me”. Sometimes it’s like waking up from a horrible dream. Please tell me I’m not alone.