Anyone else bullied in your younger years and find it still affects you?

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I was bullied a lot growing up and went to therapy which helped a lot, but the low self esteem and emotional scars never fully healed. I was diagnosed with ADHD last year which explained so much about my life and has helped me to be so much kinder to myself. Anyone else still find that the aftermath of bullying affects you years later ?

Yes, part of the reason I'm not a people person. I was bullied right through school, name calling, taking my belongings, physical bullying, hits, kicks, being pushed downstairs, my parents complained but school did nothing about it. I've even been bullied at work, I had a couple of managers who took great delight in picking on me because they thought I wouldn't answer back. I have been on antidepressants for nearly 40 years because of it.

Yeah I'm nearly 50 and have been in therapy for this.

It hasn't left all by itself and needs proper professional work

Bullied in primary and even physically assaulted; made fun of for being "fat" and wearing glasses.
Ignored by the girls at secondary school (well except when they laughed at me whenever I walked by). I ended up hanging with the boys - geeks and nerds - my kind of people.
Bullied in my first job. I went to the management about her and she then sucked up to me, but I detested her. Bullied in teaching by a hateful head and even worse deputy head. 15 staff left the year after he began, so I know he was the problem!!
As a result I've suffered from a terribly low self esteem all my life. I also hate my body and I have imposter syndrome. My dh tells me I'm beautiful and capable all the time, but I do find it so hard to believe.

I had years of sibling bullying which the had the knock on effect of then having awful 'romantic' relationships as I had such low self-esteem.

I'm in my 50s now and it took many years to forgive my brother, and my parents for letting it go on, and myself for the lack of self-respect I showed myself in relationships. I still have bouts of low self-esteem but have good friends and a nice job which isn't high flying but I'm very happy with it and my colleagues. I've still never managed a healthy romantic relationship though.