If you had a baby after years of infertility, what was it like?

[AliceAbsolum]

I've got my 12 week scan next week, after 7 years and 5 cycles of IVF.
I always said I'd try to relax more and try to believe it will happen after 12 weeks.
But after so many years I just can't believe it. Motherhood has always been something for other women, not for me. I feel like if the scan shows there is nothing in there I wouldn't be surprised.
If you've experienced similar - did you feel the same? What was it like when you had a real bump and when the baby was born? Did you get used to it?

I'm pretty lazy so I hope I'll be able to manage the high standards and perfectionism. But I can totally see how that could be a problem.

I think I am worried about bonding and being distant. On the one hand all I want is to assume this will probably be fine and jump in with both feet. But there is a guarding off my heart. And maybe at 11 weeks that's understandable. Maybe at 20 30 40 weeks it'll reduce.

@HSKAT thank you that's really helpful.