I am utterly miz, my mother died three months ago and I am missing her more than I ever thought possible (and we had a tricky dynamic at times) DS's trainee position at a company has folded as they have no work coming in. So he is a little ray of sunshine. I am sitting in bed, not in a depressed way, but just a meh way, so I am now going to have a long hot shower, and then go downstairs do all the admin I have on my list play this song on repeat and like I said Fake it until I make it.
The dreams are horrible at the moment and despite having very mild sleeping tablets that turn my brain off long enough to go to sleep, the dreams are graphic and angsty.
Either way, anyone joining me ??