Lost

[Snmum78]

Hi all. So just feeling a little lost at the moment. I have two beautiful children. One is disabled. He is almost completely wheelchair bound, oxygen dependent, on home ventilation, autistic with developmental delays and a whole huge list of other conditions.
Pre COVID I had started working again though only 12 hours a week. Previously I earnt well in the banking industry and have worked since 15. Now we are allowed to re-enter real life (he's cev so was shielding, had to give up work again etc). I then got COVID which has made my asthma awful so can't even exercise(my go to when getting depressed!)

I just am constantly juggling hospital appointments, sickness(he's immune suppressed so gets everything going!), the 9 year olds clubs and friends his admin, the bills etc

I genuinely have never felt so low and lost and hoping someone has some words of wisdom to help xx

My current go- to mh booster is gardening! I have planted /thinned /repotted some edibles and I feel really hopeful of some less stressful times ahead! Dc are soil avoidant so it is some great Me Time.
Sorry things are rubbish for you lately op..

Easier said than done, but you need to find something just for you. Block out a certain amount of time in the day for you to do an activity that makes you feel happy.
Does your area have a carers coffee morning?

This sounds really hard. I suggest looking at meditation and breathing exercises to help a bit while you can't exercise.

What is your support network like? Do you have a DH / DP? Local family?

Do you qualify for any external support?

Agree with starting small and carving out something for yourself. Even if it's just an hour a week.

Are there any job options that will allow you to WFH?

I know its tough (DC3 has a rare genetic condition and whilst she isn't massively physically impeded, it's a whole other world managing a child with challenging needs). I cope by being able to step away every now and then.