Hello,
Bit of a pointless one, I just needed to put my feelings in to words. For the last 10 years I have struggled with my mental health. I have been bullied, controlled by an eating disorder, abused alcohol, lost so many loved ones, been sexually assuated and depressed to the point of praying id never wake up.
All through these times people would tell me to hang on because 'it gets better' but at the time it never feels like it will. For the first time in a long time I believe them. I am so so happy. I love my job, I've met the love of my life...and furniture shopping for our new home today has made me realise just how thankful I am that I'm still here. I could cry with joy. I am so grateful for everyone who stood by me and that includes many people on this site who supported me on past threads (name changed since).
I lost a family member to suicide not to long ago, and I hope in that anyone in that position, or feeling how I did, reads this and believes me (although I know it sounds like BS at the time) that It can get better. I am proof that it can. Life can be beautiful again after so much darkness 😘
So so much love to you all and thank you