Suddenly I'm incredibly unhappy; is this a MLC?

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I am suddenly overwhelmed by sadness and hopelessness and I don't know why. I've been crying for four days straight. For the last few months I've felt a creeping dissatisfaction - looked at emigrating etc. - but I feel like I'm at some sort of weird crisis point now.

I have zero reason to be unhappy. I have a beautiful toddler DD, a lovely DH, no current money worries, a good job etc. Nothing has changed - I'm on the same HRT I've been on for the last couple of years, no change in circumstances.

I'm searching for a way to explain this. I'm 42 - am I having a mid life crisis?

That's quite a dip in your mood. What strength HRT are you on?

Hi @SpindleInTheWind - I'm on the max dose of oestrogel (4 pumps) as I had premature ovarian failure - DD was a donor egg baby - and have been on HRT for years (apart from during IVF cycles). Also utrogestan and tostran gel. So I don't think it's a hormone issue.

That does seem like an adequate dose, yes, on the face of it - but I've been doing some research into recommended doses in other countries for women who (like me) have had surgical removal of both ovaries and it's a lot higher than British GPs give credit for. In US clinics, it's 2x or 3x the dose that would normally given.

I wonder if your premature ovarian failure is comparable?

So it may be that you might need an extra pump. And check your vitamin and mineral levels. Mine were crap on my last blood test but that's a whole other story.

Congratulations on your DD btw Toddlers can be very demanding though.

Why you’ve written sounds peri menopausal, so maybe time for a medication review.

@SpindleInTheWind yes, usually women with POF need a high dose of oestrogen; although I had to do a lot of research and figure things out for myself rather than rely on GPs - the ones I saw knew very little about menopause. The current combination was working for me until recently.

@KangarooKenny I was perimenopausal in my twenties and I'm over 40 now; I'd have thought, if anything, I'd be post-menopausal by now? Hard to tell though - I've been on HRT for so long!

I guess I should go see my GP and see what he says. It sounds so pathetic though. "Hello doctor - I feel really sad . . . " 

I was about to say peri menopause and I see pp has written it.
Make a gp appointment asap. If it's not that then they can still point you in the direction of support.

It's not pathetic at all. No GP will think that.

I said that you ‘sound’ peri menopausal, which makes me think your HRT needs tweaking.

That's how being on the pill makes me feel (i dont therefore take the pill!). So sounds very hormonal