2 years ago I had cancer, with lockdown my op and treatment was delayed for months.
I was working but on furlough so financially I was OK.
After I had my op I lost the use of one of my arms, and there was some nerve damage. They have also diagnosed FND.
I am in pain 24/7, I cant move my head and neck, I sleep very poorly as I wake every time I move, I'm on 7 different medications, and I have no feeling in my arm, alongside this my voice sometimes goes for up to a week at a time.
After furlough I applied for benefits, as I couldn't do my (very physical) job anymore they told me to quit rather than keep being signed off.
Since then I had one phone appointment and have been declared fit to work.
Every week I go to the jobcentre and get berated because I can't think of a job I can do.
I appealed, nobody contacted me, and it came back again that because I could raise one arm above my head I could work.
I absolutely can't, if I could I would. I put it for an independent reconsideration, and the letter today said it could take several months. Meantime the jobcentre said I need to keep looking for work or they will stop all my money.
I'm already up to my eyes in debt, completely on the bones of my arse here.
My worker is particularly unpleasant, one of my dc is in part time education just now due to a condition, that child goes into school and my little one comes out of nursery, they don't allow dc in the jobcentre so the only way I can go is if my friend bbysits after 4, unfortunately she has covid right now, so I asked if I could change the appt to a few days time, and she has changed it to school hours which I can do, and then told me I'm being deliberatly obstructive.
I have worked for 30 years, never once had a period of unemployment, and I seriously cannot work right now. I'm sure the independent review will come back agreeing that I cant, so I'm supposed to look for work, apply for jobs I can't do, keep up being spoken down to every week and be threatened to have absolutely nothing to feed my kids with if I don't comply with rules I physically can't follow.
I don't know what to do, or who can help, I cannot keep this up for several months.
I've been told to get a laptop, I can't afford one, they told me to use the library, but I cant get there during the day.
Does anyone have any idea what I can do, at this present moment in time I honestly don't want to even be here having to beg the jobcentre for a tiny scrap of compassion so I don't have to freeze and starve.