I was thinking about getting some counselling for childhood sexual abuse. Nothing really awful but went on for a couple of years age 9-11 and then a few older boys separately trying to do things to me up to 13. I lost count of all the people who assaulted me after that. Low level stuff just groping, touching or trying to press up against me. This went on until early twenties.
I don't feel like a mess but I do think about this most days in some capacity. I self harmed a lot as a teenager and was not well behaved.
What I'm wondering is if it's just normal for someone of 47 to have had all this anyway, I think most women have. Will a counsellor think, well none of that is that bad really, every woman has that stuff. Or... do I need to talk about it to move on?