I've had a bit too much wine this weekend and as a result of that I've smoked 18 cigarettes over 2 days (only usually smoke 4 or 5 when drinking) and as a result of that I've been feeling massive guilt, anxiety and shame all day today about neglecting my health and worrying about my lungs. Then I start worrying about my family and all the people I love and the problems they are struggling with. Then I start getting down about all my failed relationships and dead friendships in the past. Then whatever else I can think of to beat myself up with. I try to keep positive and active, I've tried to cheer myself up all day but half an hour ago I just gave in, phoned my Mum and had a right good bawl. Proper sobbed down the phone. I've just felt so low all day - does anyone else have days like this? I feel like a little kid who just wants to sit on someone's lap and be rocked. I'll be glad when I've fallen asleep 😔