Do I just do this forever?

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I work in law (litigation). Loved my job and then became pregnant with DC. Now have two lovely DCs. I have tried to hang in there working part-time the last few years, but I feel like I am going slowly insane. I have constant self-doubt and worry, I will go through a good phase and then find myself back to hating it, looking for a way out. I am just not the same person I was pre-children. I cannot stop worrying/thinking about work when I am not there.

DH is starting up own business in another profession. If it goes well then we will financially be pretty ok. But at the moment, and for the last few years, I have been stuck in my profession. Have tried a few different workplaces but the job effectively is the same - demanding clients who don't see you as human, constant stress, no room at all for mistakes and most of all the complete inability to switch off and be present with my DCs.

I would love to hear success stories from people who have escaped a stressful profession after DCs - I dream of owning my own business, not sure what but just being my own boss. I love working and can handle stress but not the constant bloody worry. I want to love what I do again but my DCs will always come first. One option I have is to be part of DH's business in some form but that is not going to happen in the short term.

Give me some hope?

What I can say, having had my own business, is that it's a guaranteed way to never switch off!
Is it possible for you to go sideways in law , something I know nothing about, into a job that possibly pays you less but is less responsibility/stress/worry until your children are a little older and your husband's business is more established?

I am kind of doing that now but it still feels too much unfortunately. I get that a business isn’t just an easy commitment. I guess the level of worry in law is just like nothing else sometimes

I moved to teach my speciality in a tertiary college. A few years ago now but it was the easiest job I’ve ever had. Students all want to be there, there was competition for the places available, I found preparing and delivering lectures easy. I worked f/t and was the course leader but there were also p/t lecturers. Is this something you’d consider?

@Changeee1546789

I am kind of doing that now but it still feels too much unfortunately. I get that a business isn’t just an easy commitment. I guess the level of worry in law is just like nothing else sometimes

What is it that you worry about?