So the first dilemma is the fact I have an unconditional offer at two universities but I don’t know which to choose. I was due to attend an applicant day at the closest one today but when I got there all I saw was streams of 17/18 year old’s there with their parents. I felt so out of place and pathetically awkward, I daren’t walk in so totally bottled it and cried in the car. I know it’s so stupid but I’ve had severe PND and anxiety over the past couple of years so even applying to uni was a big step for me. The applicant day just felt too big a step, I’d have felt better seeing even one person around my age (29 so not ancient!) or older but I just saw kids. I’m hoping someone will be able to reassure me that I definitely won’t be the oldest one there and there will be other mature students? I hope so anyway.
I’ve chosen the same subject at two universities. One is half an hour away, the other will take 1 hour 20 mins on the train. I prefer the modules at the one further away and today really put me off the closer university even though I didn’t go in! I didn’t like the feel of the place even from the outside if that makes sense? I’m just worried almost 3 hours a day on a train may be too much, it also means 2 trains rather than 1. Would that be too much travelling when I have two toddlers to consider?
I’m in a bit of frantic mess about it all tbh. I’ve been a SAHM for 3.5 years since eldest was born and my life has become quite insular so this is a huge step for me. I’m even panicking about sorting childcare because the uni’s can’t tell me which days I’ll be in until a couple of weeks before I start so I have no idea what will happen there.