Not a stealth boast. I’m in a job which is absolute hell. Started 4 months ago. Terrible induction, Bad management, no coaching or support when you ask, expectation to work excessive hours. When I asked for clarity on priorities, was told everything was a priority and all needed to be done urgently. Etc etc. I was Signed off work with work related stress a couple of months ago. Boss refused to do return to work paperwork, and instead decided I was underperforming and wanted me fired. Out of the blue with no prior discussions on performance. Official review process commenced and was handed a pack of evidence that contained so many lies. In the hearing, I shared evidence to show how so much was untrue. Union described it as a witch-hunt. So I handed in my notice. I can’t work there any more. It was literally making me ill.
Over the last 6 weeks, I’ve been interviewing elsewhere. The day after I handed in my notice, I got 2 job offers. Delighted. However, My confidence in my abilities has hit a low as a result of current employer.
Option 1: Small charity. Through the interview process I met most of the team. Seem lovely. Know I would do the role really well and be happy. It’s in a role that I did for a decade, but haven’t done it in about 4 years. However, very big pay drop which we will have to plan for and only a 9 month mat cover.
Option 2: Global business. Senior role in the field I’ve worked in for 4 years. Big salary, (20% more than option 1). Permanent. Rarely available opp based on where I live. New industry which I’m very interested in. Huge investment in training etc, and loads of future opportunities. Average tenure is 20 years.
However, role at option 2 is the same type of role that I’ve just had a terrible time in. Although I’ve done this role successfully elsewhere. Current employer has spent a long time telling me I’m not good at what I do and confidence has been zapped.
What I’m worried about is - what if current employer is right? What if I’m a bit shit? Maybe that little step up is too big a jump? What if I go to option 2 and figure out that it is not the friendly hug that option 1 is to me, and I’m just not mentally ok? I can’t have another short-term role on my CV.
I need a job. We need the income. I’m just feeling a bit bruised from the last few weeks and can’t see clearly what the right move is.