I’m desperate for help!
So abit about me and my history and what has been happening
August 2020 I have my first chemical miscarriage I was around 4 weeks, December 2020 I also then had a chemical I was just shy off 5 weeks pregnant when it happened, February 2021 comes around I indeed fell pregnant again and lost the pregnancy at around 4 weeks again, April 2021 the same, June 2021 it happened again, all around and just before 5 weeks pregnant. I then got accepted to speak to a specialist in September 2021 they had flushed my tubes out with dye and also tested me for numerous things, there must’ve been around 30 things they tested me for, I cannot remember what the test is called (currently got pregnancy brain) in the test they tested thyroid function and many other things, it’s the usual test you receive after 3 miscarriages, well everything on that test has came back clear. My consultant put me on 200mg twice daily progesterone, that same cycle I had my tubes flushed I fell pregnant, but sadly that pregnancy was ectopic and I lost my right tube. In January 2022 I fell pregnant (wasn’t even trying) and I also lost that pregnancy at 5 weeks. My consultant said she will up my dose of progesterone to 400mg twice daily. Well I’ve fallen pregnant again 4 weeks 6 days, my hcg isn’t doubling as it should be, I take folic acid everytime I’m pregnant also, I’m seeing my consultant tomorrow for more bloods to confirm miscarriage and also a scan just to rule out another ectopic because I’ve been getting stomach pains. Everytime I try give the early pregnancy unit my tissue I either don’t make it and it’s not viable and on my last miscarriage they gave me the wrong pot to store the tissue and could only test for molar pregnancy- I haven’t had the tissue kerotyped before, my partner has had his sperm checked and all perfect, he’s had his chromosomes checked and also fine, I’m almost certain in the test I had done they checked mine also but like I stated everything came back fine. 6 years ago with a previous partner I had a healthy girl who to this day thrives and shines, my partner does not have any children. I’m at a loss.. my consultant has said there’s nothing more she can do but I know there’s a lot more.. I’ve read about it, she has said if there’s any clinical trials that come up she would let me know but that gives me not a lot of hope. I just want a baby, I want to give my daughter siblings, I don’t want to feel like a failure like body is a death chamber I want my partner to have his own children. I always wanted a big family. I am only 24 years old and I’m stubborn but I’m seriously losing all hope.. each loss gets harder for me to cope with because I’m losing a battle I didn’t want to participate in! Please if anyone has any suggestions, anything I can bring to the table with my consultant, I’m unable to go private I don’t have the funds for something like that, I have considered donating my eggs to recieve ivf but if it continues happening then what? I need advice, on medications, on testing on how to cope now, it’s finally gotten to me that I don’t think I can have another baby, it’s like my body sees it as a alien and rejects it straight away! Please help
So all in all I’ve had 6 chemical pregnancies, a ectopic, 1 healthy successful pregnancy before all of this and currently pregnant again and looks like I’m about to go through it all again, my consultant has said if tomorrow shows I’m miscarrying then I’ll be sent for a d&c so it can all be kerotype tested.. but I just have a feeling like everything else that will show nothing 😞 and I just want ideas to bring to the table if that is the case