I am simply fed up. I feel disgusting, ugly, not taken care of. I cant snap out of this mood. I am constantly aggrevated and miserable. I have no time. 15 months old baby, only one, which is pathetic to moan when there are families with few kids and bigger problems. But i just cant take it, take care of everything, husband barely home, he helps when he is home but it is not often. We have no one here to help. I have no time to take care of myself, wearing old leggins and baggy tshirts all the time, have 15kg to loose and cant even begin, no time for make up, to take care of my nails, to shave my legs. days are so hectic and when i do have some time in the evening i am just tired and get lazy. Cant begin doing anything with my life. I am so not happy with myself and disgusted. I remember myself slim, always looking nice, organized, on top of everyhing, always smiling or laughing. Now everyone just annoys me. Trying to keep it all together for my DC but i feel i am failing at everything. I know i have so much to be thankful for and happy for, but it just doesnt help to feel better and to motivate me.
Just wanted to spill it out, too embarrased to say that to few friends i have or DH.