I screamed at my 15 month old and I feel horrendous

[Caramelandcoco]

DS was really difficult to get down last night and was nearly 9 y the time he eventually went to sleep, after an hour or so of trying. Then he woke at 1130 and then would wake whenever I left the room.

I was so tired and frustrated I ended up screaming something like FINE, we’ll stay up ALL NIGHT

Of course he cried but even that didn’t calm me down and I was banging around the kitchen ranting at DH that I was going to leave so I could get some sleep - wtf.

I did apologise to both of them but what the hell is wrong with me … I just do get so tired.

Oh goodness I did this, more than once,

Your baby won't remember.

Can DH do more to help?

He only wants me at night (although that may change now I’ve screamed at him )

I wish DH could help a bit more at weekends and give me a bit of a break.

Nothing wrong with you - other than being tired. Hang in there, it’s so hard sometimes.

We've all been there, the guilt is horrendous but you're under a lot of pressure with little sleep so forgive yourself and let it go. If it's happening regularly speak to your GP or health visitor who'll be able to help, honestly you're not the first and won't be the last xxx

We’ve all been there !
If he only wants you at night you need to not be available. Go to a cheap hotel or your parents and let them get in with it.

Been there, I think most of us have. Your DH needs to give you a break.

Not being able to sleep is a form of torture so it is no surprise you are going to scream back at some point.

Your DH needs to step up. If he's more involved with the baby, the baby will get used to going to him, not just you.

Sleep deprivation will do that. Don't beat yourself up. It's really hard. It'll get better

He wants you because he knows you can help. If your DH goes half the time he will learn he also can help.