Currently 32 weeks with my daughter. I feel i have no excitement towards this baby. I have an 8 year old son who i had postnatal depression with, i went down a bad road and started taking drugs (crack and cocaine and heavy alcohol use, never ever around my son). My son went to live with my mum a couple of years ago as his school attendance was low so i was done for neglect. When i got pregnant with my daughter i stopped all drugs and alcohol use, i tried to stay positive, but social services are all over me even though i have done everything right. The dad (same dad as son) wants NOTHING to do with baby which i am fine with because he is useless anyway. I have been seeing a different ex who i have always loved but we separated due to my drugs use, when i stopped the drugs we started seeing each other again as the love never died, but he is struggling to accept the pregnancy and says ultimately he will need to see how he feels once the baby is born. I think that is making me resent the baby also. My head is such a mess. Sorry for the long moan i just don’t know what to do :(