I’m overwhelmed

[ThereAreTearsOfThings]

I’m overwhelmed.

I can’t cope with the wider world. I can’t believe humanity.

In my personal live I’m at my wits end. I feel like I’ve fallen into some sort of stupid game, or trap, I’m finally seeing the light but I’d rather live in darkness.

I can’t cope with covid and war and destruction. I can’t cope with inequality in my relationship. I can’t cope with how culture is affecting women and children.

I’m menopausal and I can’t think straight, even on HRT. I have okay days but life is like wading through treacle. I don’t know what right or wrong anymore. I feel I’m doing everything but my partner thinks I should do more so he can look after his ageing parent.

I can’t stand their relationship and it makes me want to end ours. If it was just me I would but the implications for our children are huge. And maybe I wouldn’t and I’m just mad and sad.

I’ve got so much to do but I’m laid in bed sobbing. One of my children is sobbing too but I can’t move. I just can’t move. I’ve reached the end of my tether. I’ll sleep and get it back but I’ll have damaged her a bit more. They give you up your mum and dad.

Just letting you know you aren’t alone OP. I hope the sleep helps. When I feel like this I break things down into manageable chunks….just one hour at a time. Maybe your HRT isn’t the right dose. I know I felt super dreadful when I started menopause.

Thank you.

Child is now been sorted and happy with a friend.

Maybe HRT isn’t right but I’m not sure. I feel I’m being gaslit by my hormones and in my relationship.

You don't really give us any specifics OP, so it's hard to see what's actually wrong. You mention world events and say you can't cope. It's the same for us all I'm afraid, but there's nothing we can do so no point worrying. You can't stand the relationship between dh and his parents. Why not? And how old are the children. Presumably teenage?

Give yourself a proper break from the news and focus on yourself OP, and that includes speaking to the GP or seeking some therapy or counselling. Even ringing samaritans or similar to let feelings out can be of a benefit. Could it be possible that you are experiencing depression and/or anxiety?

Witnessing a range of normal human emotions won't damage your child.

It seems you are lumping some very separate issues together and feeling overwhelmed. Be kind to yourself, seek help from others or your GP and don't make any impulsive decisions about relationships until it is something you have separated from your general stress and looked at rationally with your best interests at heart. Are you able to talk to your DP about these kinds of things, or a friend?

Thank you. I made sure everyone was fed and had plans for the day and went back to bed. I had so much to do yesterday but there was no point trying ti do it, and needed to sleep.

I’ve taken on energises issues, plus loads of my own and I couldn’t cope anymore. I usually keep plodding on but yesterday I just couldn’t.