So silly. Friend been here for ages for work, leaving today. I cancelled seeing her yesterday as I had a course and felt guilty as Dp home working. Instantly regretted as they are an old friend and they remind me of a life I could have had. I could go and see her off this morning, and I’m all anxious- I’ll miss a morning of the course ( to improve skills to find a job) I need to get on with a bit of freelance, Dp home working while I swan off. Silly I know, but felt so bad yesterday after cancellation. It was a vague idea and she’d called in the morning to meet at lunch. I’m a sahm and I get so anxious about not earning while Dp does, and also been seen by everyone as swanning around all day. Silly I know but I get all confused about what’s best and then get stuck. Help!