I can’t cope with parenting😫

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I know that really I need to get a grip but I’m finding parenting my kids hell at the moment. Currently Dd12 is crying herself to sleep - she got something wrong with a friend this evening and as a result tomorrow at school won’t be fun (understatement). It won’t for me either because I will spend the day receiving ever more desperate texts and voicemails begging me to pick her up. Things had been going so much better recently and now it’s all going to go kaboom. And I cannot seem to regulate my own emotions - I’ve been calm & kind & cuddled her this evening, telling her to stay calm and it’ll be ok in the end but I’m now sitting here weeping with worry, knowing that I won’t sleep for the fear of tomorrow - & I’m chronically unwell and this won’t help. Rationally I keep telling myself what I should be doing/ how I should be coping but I just don’t seem able to. No point to this thread except I need to tell someone how I feel😭

Sorry you feel this way- could you be depressed?

This sounds really hard.

It's tricky when they are upset but what's upsetting you? Is this normal? Out of the blue or been creeping up on you?

That feeling of fear and no coping is awful the anxiety, I can relate.

Sending hugs x

Thank you both for responding💐. Am I depressed? Very possibly. I’ve had a chronic illness for a year - I’ve paid thousands for private consults, tests, alternative therapies and nothing has helped. Im weak physically which I think has probably exacerbated mental weakness. I’ve always worried too much and tried to control things beyond what is possible. In the morning I just want to get through to the evening and for the day to be over and at night when I get into bed I just worry about what the next day will bring. I just want my kids to be happy and I feel that I have totally failed them when they are not. Dd seems unable to form close friendships (though she desperately wants to) and I feel that it must be my fault and it’s my responsibility to fix. I try to help but I never manage to fix anything.