I am just after learning of some news. I girl I went to school with has cancer. I remember her well and she was a nice girl. She had cancer last year. It's a stage 4 cancer and the doctors made a decision to stop the chemo. I was told it's not looking good.
I am so upset at this news. It's been years since we've seen each other but still it's hit me. She's still so young at 37. I don't know what kind of cancer it is. It's not fair.
I had some of the most blackest thoughts during the week for myself. My cousin commited suicide last year. I had a long and stressful week and my thoughts were on the line of
- he had the right idea getting off this planet.
I'm waiting on biopsy results myself and I thought -
It wouldn't be any harm if a cancer diagnosis was returned to me and I might be able to get a break then.
It's just all so wrong. There's a lady lying up in bed in hospital who probably doesn't want to be there and here I am begging for a break from this world.
It's hit me so much.