I need some advice as I can’t go to any friends or family about this. I have been with my partner for 7 years we have one child together he is less than a year old. I have another son that I had quite young but partner treats him as his own. Son calls him dad etc.. I have a history of anxiety and panic attacks that have been quite debilitating. He really is amazing at supporting me through my hardest times. But he drinks a lot and I hate when he’s drunk. He’s a different person, even my oldest son hates when he’s drunk which I feel is saying something. He can be quite argumentative and I’m always filled with anxiety when he drinks. Two weeks ago we both had some wine at the weekend nothing Major but during the night when We we’re both sleeping and the baby woke he got very angry with me because I wouldn’t tend to him but it was my night off, he pushed my head very hard into the pillow enough to hurt my face, I retaliated and hit him back but then he repeatedly hit me I had bruises on my forehead and Jaw. His own mother has said after seeing him drunk that I should be careful and I need to make a decision. He is financially in control of everything as I don’t work at the moment, I needed to write this to see how bad it all sounds.. I don’t know what to do, I have told him he needs counselling which he refuses completely, doesn’t see the problem at all. I do love him and care about him but I’m walking on eggshells all the time as his moods can be quite bad a lot of the time, sorrry for the long post 🥺🥺