Needing a handhold

[Blue4YOU]

I’m really struggling today: I’ve reported a doctor (in 2019) for sexually motivated touching/assault which was no further actioned by the police and GMC. I had asked for a Rule 12 review (re-opening the case) and they’ve refused it.
The worst part of it is that they seem to think I’m a fantasist.
I really wish I’d never reported him.
I’ve spent two and a half years fighting it on all possible fronts and they just get to dismiss me (saying I genuinely believe it happened but that doesn’t mean it did happen).
I’m sitting here crying waiting for my little girl to get back from school (she’s seriously disabled) and wishing I’d listened to my family who said to just leave it.
How do people get over things like this?

No-one?

I don't know how people get over things like that, it took guts to report it and I am so sorry this has happened to you

I don't know where to start, have you had any counselling?

Thank you both. Yes re counselling- it helps but I don’t think I’ll properly be able to get over the insult of the GMC saying that it’s accepted that I have a “genuine” belief I was sexually assaulted but that doesn’t mean it happened. It’s things like that that are crazy making.
Somehow I have to get over it but as someone who can’t even tell a white lie it’s so disorienting to be repeatedly told that it didn’t happen, when it did