I wrote a post let me take you back. It was about when I was a teen and had a crush on a boy and finding out he is an actor just recently.
What people don't understand it triggered a lot inside of me.
Don't get me wrong it's not a bad thing in fact very happy. I just had quite a lot happen in my life good and bad. I feel secured in certain areas of my life but one area really uncertain about what's going to happen. I had pushed it aside because I want to be positive and that it be okay.
I just had to turn my back on things that was draining me. Started talking to God and praying asking him for strength through uncertain times.
I started to feel happy but this thing been hanging over my head for a very long time. Then finding out that guy an actor it completely triggered so much of my past. I actually don't know why.
It's like that wasn't meant to happen now. I never even thought of him at all.
I just put my trust in God that he has got me. I am here confused for a reason in my life. I just feel like did God hid this guy from me because he knew how I would be 4 or 5 years ago. I been reading my Bible and it's like I honestly feel scared of what next.
Also yesterday I received a message about an hospital appointment I been waiting for. This situation I am uncertain of this is connected to it too. Two things so nervous but both will decide what going to happen next.
I would normally go drink wine but no it won't stop what's going to happen. Or runaway but this time going to face this head on
Please don't comment if you not believer of God.
Does anyone feel confused like what next?